It been a while since I have a done a blog. A lot has been going on with me. I have been applying for jobs that are not leading to an interview, working at a place that is not leading me anywhere, and going to a place that is losing their best workers. It has been a mess that has no way of fixing it.
Here is how I am doing. I am feeling lost and trap at a place in my life that is not leading me anywhere in life. I have been working for Sam’s Club since September 2006. I graduated from San Francisco State University in December 2013 with a bachelor degree in Asian American Studies. I always thought that after graduation it would be easy for me to find a new job. I been applying for jobs that would fit the description that I have experience in. I use the experience that I got from working at Sam’s Club, International Hotel Manilatown Center, and San Francisco State University but no luck. What is going on with this? I been questioning myself about what is happening to me in 2014. There is a roadblock that is preventing me from getting a new job. It is like a sign saying that I should stay at a job that does not have any benefits. Going back to school is not going to solve anything since I am in a budget situation. I wish my true friends that say that they are my friends would help me out but that are not.
A lot of people that know me well know that I been going to Off the Grid on a daily basis. My main reason that I been going there not just for the food but the live music performance that been there and the people that work with Off the Grid and the food trucks. I have gotten to known people that been at the Off the Grid market. It is a way to get away from my problems that I been dealing with at Sam’s Club and home life. I been going to Off the Grid ever since May 2013. I enjoy the live music performance and that I have been video recording the performance. I do inform the performer that I am recording them and that I would show them the video. They do appreciate that I been watching their performance.
There is something I would like to mention that most people been noticing about me. It is my refusal to mention anything about myself. Whenever I try to be close to someone I feel afraid of being a joke and it bothers me. Telling my story, which includes family, education, and work tend to be the butt of the joke. I do not want to be joke around which I been dealing with my entire life. I cannot handle being made fun of. I will admit I am having withdrawal to the public. When I try to make contact with someone I just don’t say anything. Maybe I was trauma as a child where I was not allow to make any contact with anyone. Eventually I will tell people about me when the time is right.
Not my best blog I ever posted. I just thought I would posted what been going on with me. Something that I rarely mention about my personal life.
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