Why Is This going Downhill Before 30

Thursday October 7 will be my birthday. I will be turning 30 year old. I have feel that I have not done any achievement while I was in my 20’s. Put it this way. I still live with my parents. Am I ready to become 30? I’m starting to get the grey hairs.

As of late I am going through a crises. Some reason I can’t keep up with any of my friends daily lives, meaning what been going on with them and also keeping friends, losing interest in me or them. I feel like I am a boring person. I try to keep myself entertain by keeping up with the conversation but I don’t know what I could talk about with them if I have to think of something to talk about.

Here what’s upsetting me a lot. When I am friends with someone are both parties suppose to keep in contact with each other? If you want to be friends with me then try your hardest to stay in contact with me. I do the same thing by sending messages to people while I am still working or at school. I take the time from my busy schedule to keep in contact with people.

Here is my goal for October. I am not going to keep in contact with anyone that has not been keeping in contact with me for the entire month. I feel upset at the people that I am trying my best to keep the friendship going but in return I don’t get any support. Maybe I should be finding someone that I am comfortable with. At least find a connection. No connection means not a good future in a way that I see it. Let hope there is hope for me. I hate feeling negative.