Thirty Is The New Beginning in Life

I have a huge confession. I don’t want to turn 30. I am still enjoying my adult life in my twenties. I felt that I have not achieved anything in my life. I felt that when I am still in my twenties I have not gotten married, graduated from college, and live in a beautiful house in a nice neighborhood. I luck in to get into San Francisco State University after the long years of struggling. I’m still in a job that is hard to do with the crazy environment. I’m still in a stage where I felt that nothing has been accomplished in my life.

I see turning 30 a new stage of life that I am not ready yet. It is a age that means settling down. I’m not a parent or have a great job. What is sad is that I still live with my parents. Try finding someone that are in their thirties still living with their family. I’m still young where my bedroom is still a mess plus I play video games system.

When I saw my parents in their thirties they were working non-stop. The only time that I would see my parents was on their days off which all they did was relax. They couldn’t afford taking me out due to the struggle that they did for the family. The only parent that would be raising me would be my grandparents. It also a stage that I don’t want to be in.

I feel that getting old is ending my life. I still think about the 1980’s and 1990’s. I go through flashback about my past. Some reason I am thinking 1988, 1992, and 1996. My mind is probably not accepting me getting old. It is putting me in a world that is refusing me to get old.

I got two weeks until I turn 30 (October 7). I have to accept that I am turning to a new leaf in life. Plus I am starting to get grey hairs. Now I need to know what I want to do for my 30 birthday.